Monday, September 15, 2014

four days before I say I do


Crazy. It is crazy that in 4 days I will be a wife. I want to cry just typing that, but then again I have been really emotional and my patience is the size of a raisin. I had to text my dear friend who just go married a few weeks ago, if this was normal. She reassured me that it is. Safe to say that DIY wedding's lead to some tension/stress. I started to feel sort of- back- together- again yesterday. My sisters helped me this weekend by moving all our "wedding stuff" to my sister's garage. The following day we deep cleaned every corner of our apartment. Now that I can see the floor again, I feel back to normal. Does that even make sense? Clean spaces make me happy is all. We have smallish items to take care of you now like, cleaner drop offs, nails, eyebrow threading (me not Richard), and just one more DIY project and we are DONE! I really can't wait to see how my imagination comes to life. I hope it's as pretty as I imagine it to be.

I keep thinking, "this is the last Monday I will be unmarried.....I told Richard this past weekend while we were scrubbing our apartment, "this is the last weekend we will be boyfriend and girlfriend!". I don't think it's hit us yet. Friday seems like it's so far away, yet, it is SOOOOOO close! I really can't wait to be married and start our new journey as husband and wife. I am having a hard time acknowledging that we will never be just boyfriend and girlfriend again. (even though we can pretend to keep things interesting). I just want to remember what our life was like before we became husband and wife. I don't want to forget how it felt to get picked up from my parent's house to go out on a date. I don't want to forget what it felt like to be hugged by him when we were just friends. I don't want to forget how I wrote his last name with mine over and over again. I don't want to forget any of it, it is all so special to me.

There has been so many moments that I treasure and that I don't want to forget but then I think about all the new memories we are going to build. Our honeymoon, having our first baby, celebrating birthdays with our kids, traveling the world together during retirement, I know it will all be good and I will look back and think how much more amazing our life has become.

I can't wait to be his wife.

xoxo. Yessenia